음악피아노 – ㅡmusicpiano

28 Apr

I’m sitting in front of ‘spring came here’ window, in front of my laptop, in front of other buildings, in front of myself, in front of my bizarre feelings. For those 7 days I was training my learning languages diligently and carefully, day by day, and where are the substansial results? My body burning me out, I’m stinking out. Might be I’m exaggerating here that I have lots of soul and body illnesses, not likely, more scare thing is that I’m loosing my concentrating on important aspects of my life. What did happened today? 따라하세요? Wie ergeht es dir? Is that all? So sick! My morning’s two simplest examples do asking someone about his/her life just to draw an image that I’m interested in. So why? So what? What for?

For instance, yesterday I skipped my meditation 30-minutes session, and deep-learning of MySql, and lots of time I was reading Chinese books had written in English language, lots of words in Korean, and lots of examples with translating in the Deutsch, and where the results? (And I know clearly all that aren’t enough at all, at all). Do you mean instant, fastests, quickest ‘have done’ properly and with obviosly knowledge to use them in practice, in life? So sick! That’s sick! I was playing guitar, and even had record a video and uploaded to my youtube channel, I would say that is ‘good start, keep it up, never settle down, and what?’ That’s all. The results are making me boring, because I don’t like ‘my have done’, at some point I hate those silly, stupid, moron results, and I would add, ‘add more hours, more training minutes, more productivity, more passion, more simplisity, and let it down for a moment, and again over again, on and on, that? Indeed?

What difference does it make what I learn four languages simultaneously? It’s big challenge, and I know, to start to learn anything is the simplest action we’ve ever always been know, the point is to finish, it’s marathon, and the point is to be fluent in every aspect, puncuation therefore writing, sounds patterns therefore talking, meanings of the words therefore reading, and you know what? When you’re stinking out to learning by heart such a casual words like, ‘delicious’, ‘house’, ‘time’, to have, to go and so on and so forth, it really hurts, because other 60 million and even billion of people know that better than you, it’s clear and again the point is to make such a hard learning hours are to say something for all of them by ‘fluent’ language. That’s my point of view. I’m getting to loose as I think my ability to write in English language, I’m thinking that if I start to learn other language, in the first time all my concentrating will be in basic aspects and that’s why I have chance to stop increase my education on the English, because almost  all the time my attention will paid to ‘just for converstation aspects’ of learning language, for instance, Korean: 법학  – law; 음악 – music, and does make any sense to add more words to my current English? No! Even don’t think about it at all. I’m loosing or had stopped my English language. So how about Chinese? Der Apfel – > I need a hours of hours to remember the word Der Apfel in Chinese language.

There are lots of aspects for ‘arrays’ in PHP,  a bunch of them, and you need to remember all of them to manipulate in future projects and be real professional. You can just install ‘framework’, or ‘CMS’ but you won’t know all deep courners and it means just be ‘user’, not ‘maker’. In order to be ‘maker’ you have to invest all of your time, without any holidays, any days for resting, you ‘have to’ in work all the time, because of ‘life’ is your best work, and you’re doing your best work you’ve ever did and will. That’s make sense, and you’re thinking all the time about what to do in the next day, and 18 hours is good enough to stay in tune in be productive. I started to read books that I’ve ever hadn’t been reading at all, I’m becoming really organized, and productive, all these hard sessions is getting to be my own established schools and universities for me for now, and I feel happines in front of sickness. It’s sick trying don’t break the chain, items that marked on the table had hanged in the wall. But my current English is so bad.

And Aaron is really helping me stay in this level of learning process, and he said the next brilliant words in the perspective:

“do think of seem to have something else in common. They don’t just love thinking, they love language. They love its tricks and intricacies, its games, the way it gets written down, the books it gets written into, the libraries those books are in, and the typography those books use.” Here.

His work and life are my inspiration to keep all these stuff on, and may be once upon a time to look myself in front of mirror, and I’ll say to myself: ‘Good, danke der Mann for 괜찮다~!’

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