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24 Jun

Two weeks ago I had a talk with one of my well acquaintance about our progress of learning The English language. With my best respects to her there is a prehistory to land a final conlcusion. Preface in short story sounds like the next: She has contstantly been studying The English for four years at the university, and had had studied at the school as well. I had been started my journey of learning in the freshman year only. But as everyone knows that years aren’t saying about our experience on any language at all. I guess our published posts are.

I took my process very diligently after a few fails in the lections in public tests at the university and made a room to learn something new each day so far. I’m pretty sure that it is working on in the best sense of the word.

A week ago I ended up with the conclusion that all my best results aren’t well enough to be serious to say about my casual life in Russian language in which I’m talking either about what I’ve been done nor what I would had been done at that time in each evening to publish in a manner of weblog’s diary. And as I could say she’d been interrupted by me.

I’d say that her way of pronunciation isn’t perfect or even not so good to talk about and a little bit about her ‘way’ of describing her ideas and so on so forth. Might be it was hurtfull or something but let’s be honest without any ‘buts’ to say the things ‘as is’. She said a few words about my ‘ungrammatical’ structures of ‘thoughts’ but she had skipped a ‘tags’ had had written like: ungrammatical flow of thoughts or smth. on nikanorovalbert.wordpress.com. I’m not trying to be better than anyone to talk like this. The one thing is I would have to say about my blogs are:

I dare to say to be not fluent by explaining what I’m doing and why. The main aim isn’t this. That’s all. I have no idea about my grammatical and other stuff because of the main idea is to save my local ‘to and fro’ thoughts. This is it.

In his 1959 classic, The Sociological Imagination, the great sociologist C. Wright Mills told students of the discpline:

“As a social scientist, you have to … capture what you experience and sort it out; only in this way can you hope to use it to guide and test your reflection, and in the process shape yourself as an intellectual craftsman. But how can you do this? One answer is: you must set up a blog…
In such a blog … there is joined personal experience and professional activities, studies under way and studies planned. In this blog, you … will try to get together what you are doing intellectually and what you are experiencing as a person. here you will not be afraid to use your experience and relate it directly to various work in progress. By serving as a check on repetitious work, your blog also enables you to conserve your energy. It also encourages you to capture ‘fringe-thoughts’: various ideas which may be byproducts of everyday life, snatches of conversation overheard in the street, or, for that matter, dreams. Once noted, these may lead to more systematic thinking, as well as lend intellectual relevance to more directed experience.
…The blog also helps you build up the habit of writing. … In developing the blog, you can experiment as a writer and this, as they say, develop your powers of expression.”

Actually, he called it a ‘file’ instead of blog, but the point remains the same: becoming a professional journalist requires practice and writing is a powerful aid to reflection.

So that’s what this blog is. I write here about thoughts I have, things I’m working on, stuff I’ve read, experiences I’ve had, and so on. Whenever a thought crystalize or not in my head, I type it up and post it here. I don’t read over it, I don’t show it to anyone, and I dont’t edit it – I just post it. I’m like Google in the fisrt years. All posts are beta or even alpha ‘analogs’ of Google’s programs has been uploaded on the internet for free to everyone with the word ‘beta’.

I don’t consider this writing, I consider this thinking. I like sharing my thoughts and I like hearing yours and I like practicing expressing ideas, but fundamentally this blog is not for you, it’s for me. I hope that you enjoy it anyway.

A draft as a usual. Thanks to Annie for that thinking. I will update this post as soon as possible to re-write  either here or there.


A new day, a new chance to make something substantial

5 Jun

In the last two days I’d been writing about motivational stuff concerning me and my current works. And you know what? I logged off from social networks again yesterday. Not so big deal, but I even couldn’t catch up what I did that in shortest period of time even didn’t thinking about it. Automatically, I just sent a message to one of my internet folks ‘The last three on the island’. Actually, it was my last session at least in this week and may be more. I do not want to say exactly that I logged off from the universe and don’t want come back anymore, but anyway that was I need to take step action in the last three days.

As you know I created an account on Medium. These guys turn on a possibility to write our own stuff in view of posts finally. And I posted one stuff so far. Here’s the link. In this month I will do my best to keep learn my languages and to promulgate (as a usual) about my days and thoughts, what I’m doing, why I’m doing this etc. etc. and trying to learn exams’ ticket before the exams itself even in four or five days earlier than event coming evening. If you’re understood what I wanted to jabber. Okay, and I ended up with conclusion that my ‘annoying’ voice that why I cannot do that question wasn’t coincidentally. I think that I give up my ‘hard-earn’ minutes and my current hours are so easy to live on. Actually. I cancelled all my programming and language courses by the reason of final tests and exams at the university.

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Okay, a little bit about posted notes on Blogger and why I was so touchable and naive in my thinking? The answer to this question is: I was totally drunk. Yeah, and as you know again: Talk is cheap, silence is expensive. But I had to post them even on my blogs. So and so. I started to follow each re-blogged my following users reblogs on Tumblr. Again, I do not know why, but I think it’s all about marketing techniques by feedbacks and likes when users with ‘low high’ followers will come back to check your account and if so to follow you and start to reat what are you sharing and posting. Let’s be honest, why we are doing it actually? Of course not only to look at nice looking photograped by professional models, of course not&

So today I’ve plans to figure out why my cartridge printing on A4 with not equal lines of black-and-white. I’m getting to be nervous by seeing at them after printed papers of my pdf’s books on computer. Yeah, it’s very and very annoying to see ‘shit’ looking learn stuff.

All about patterns in my own world

4 Jun

The life is a casual in most cases. The thing is how to invest every second of/from one day into something anything to get a positive feedbacks from had happened situations, thoughts, feelings, intentions, desires, aims etc etc. In my opinion. One day, one week, one year, a decade, it doesn’t matter. You are getting to be older from the childhood. And it’s coming the day when you’ll realize that you’ve been living on earth just one day. One day can make difference in most cases. Our casual day-by-day situations, thoughts, feelings, intentions, desires, aims  are our destiny to think different and make changes. This is the matter of choosing. In my opinion so far.

So what’s the big deal? To invest as far as you could into one day your best thoughts, feelings, intentions, desires, aims respectively. And I’m doing this all the time, or I hope that the thing going to be exactly like this. Who knows? Who? Me? I don’t think so, we aren’t robots and won’t predict what will happen in the future. The future is a matter of our casual thoughts, feelings, intentions, desires and aims as well. What are you doing in your casual days are the future and what will happened in the future. Languages, programming languages, exams, university, education, parents, girlfriend, friends, social networks, the internet, travel, communication, balcony, social skills, brands, calls, cleaning, etc. etc. It’s a messed up of various fields of our one – day that can make influence in another aspects of life. Such a life. I do not know yet what’s going on the earth but I guess the earth is one huge project of somebody that we call ‘God’. Again, who knows? Who?


What had changed so far?

19 May
Photos from the 23c3 in Berlin, Germany.

Photos from the 23c3 in Berlin, Germany. (Photo credit: Wikipedia)


The 3 last post was tagged as a ‘copy-and-paste‘ and the statistics started to decrease my readers at once. I paused a little bit because of I was blamed by the facts that I’m loosing my good sense of writing. But all these stuff was just winter time of my learning time because today me and Anna had been walking to a bus stop directly when I had started to talk in English language and I felt more self-confidence to convince myself that I’m becoming more and more proud of my own ability to say something what I want to say in the English language. That’s spring time of my exquisitely painful learning process that I started a couple years ago. The matter is to jungly with more colourful words by using more ‘absolute’ techniques by others, I mean by environ. And this experience as I hope will help me to do the same to learning other languages.

I really advice you to start read here. By clickin’ through the pasted link you’ll find an archive of Aaron‘s raw thoughts that I copied as a headline on this blog. Thanks Aaron, R.I.P. But the other side of question is I found this link when I had been scrolling my newsfeed (I do not know how to spell it correctly, anyway) on G+ that was shared by one of the admired by me folks programmers. After when I clicked on in I was very surprised badly that in the beginning of the post the guy whose name is Edmond ‘copied-and-pasted’ almost whole passages from the post of Aaron. I mean the text about ‘social science experiment’ by psychologist Carol Dweck. If I’m not mistaken of coures, and I posted the next comment below to the post:

“The most part of your thoughts I was reading on the blog of Aaron Swartz and others, but I subscribed in the hope that the future ideas will be really worth to clicking. A few words about shared links: a less more useful links, and most of by annoying amazon books that have to be paid to read. Anyway, the good idea that you started :)” – Thanks to DISQUS that build up an amazing comment framework.

Let’s keep our discussion about the article. It’s really good idea to gather all useful to be read information about engineering in the programming and to share with ideas of others that working on this field of Interet Technologies. I remember one late winter night a long time ago where I’d been programming many nights and reading about engineering folks and how these guys had learned to manage their time to be productive. So I thought that it would be not bad to share with the same info in the Russian language the problem was only to find those folks and I thought as well that it would be useful for me as a journalish and a programmer to make some connections and have some experiment how to interview in real life. (May be via the online too: e-mail, social networking sites, mailing lists etc etc. There are lots of techniques to connent with anyone instantly).

So the differense is between my and Edmond that he has a result excepting me. I can just talk about ‘what I would do in this situation’ comparing with Edmund that started to make, to do without any talking at all events with me. And he has result and I’m commenting and even subscribed to receive updates via e-mail. Nice have done buddy!

So add to these conclusions I have some news. I started to blog on wallmarkets.ru, and come back with my learning process of languages. I’m not frustrated by thinking that wasted so much time bwt these days. Not at all. I printed a new calendar, and some useful pages (fragments) from books that I’ve been reading and enjoying. Thank you guys, all these things are about to use more words  in my future posts to mark deepest side of my personification.

A language barrier?

14 Apr

The next piece of text I wrote an eigth month ago, and just found in my private archive in the cloud. So I decided it will be worth to me to know how increased my ability and capacity for writing my thoughts in The English language. The original version was posted on my livejournal account that I don’t want to reveal here by the reason of awful russian posts in my point of view. It would be better if you’ll scrolling http://www.albertnikanorov.com 😛 Thanks! The post was copied and pasted as it is without any editions or corrections. Judge me, welcome!

Okay, let’s proceed. In the last post I had skipped a few grammatical mistakes that for now only had learned by it. So if you got them too I’ve refixed them at once. And I would have to notify in advance that I’ve no guarantee that mistakes will be not show up again, so if so just pardon me and let me know. Okay? Great!

For the first time we have to have defined the meaning of a ‘word’ LANGUAGE and for that aims I just typed this word in the search engine and results brings in one second. So let’s look:

“Language is the specifically human for acquiring and using complex systems of communication, or a specific instance of such system of complex communication. When used as a general concept, ‘language’ may refer to the cognitive ability that enables humans to learn and use systems of complex communication, or to describe the set of rules that makes up these systems, or the set utterances that can be produced from those rules.”

Ahhhh, a lot of words at once, but it is. And only the meaning of the word ‘language’, isn’t? Just take to pieces these two sentences and try to understand it more simply and clearly that may be it is, too. If we read the definition couple times we can without any hardworking catch up that the word ‘communication’ used three times for describing one word.  And I guess that is the most important part of definition, I mean, range of possible meanings of this “communication”. Like any languages is the way of our manner of communication with others people like me, you, or another. That’s all. A manner of communicate with our parents, friends of may be pets. J That info not astonishing anybody but that kind of simple facts often had left behind. And we are building on our mind so many fake – reasons, tasks, problems that for us it to seems to be figure out or solving a globlam probles, and that’s all connected with/of learning process’ of any language, and even the English language. We are the civilians of our paradoxes and non – effective motives like that we doing really stuff matter. And that mountain is growing up more and more highly that as I said the simple facts left behind at all. Just for communicate, and for have chance to say to out mother “I love you so much, my mummyJ” and it definitely would be right beginning of learning process to the reach progress and for your mummy, too.

So today made me remember that I really love what I learn, how I learn it, I mean: handwriting on paper, doing exercises on handbooks and being able to control and organise ‘what I left behind’ while repeating and listening podcasts, musics, and even watching movies on their original languages and I do it like I would do it my tongue mother, without any false expression, proud or whatever it is. It’s just language, language that only help us to communicate, just for express our opinions, motives, feels, the way to say to our mother ‘I love you’, it really simple fact growing to building much more hard constructions that people do that after just begun must to give up! Because they think that is hard, because they learning English without any feeling, but have lot of angry, and false convention. Feelings are the keyword in order to open properly our soul. Our inner soul that so big that can contain three absolutely different languages at once! (In my opinion). Creating amazing experience that exactly what I want to say for today.  While learning try to create your own, private, intimate experience and try to describe your own feeling with the language that you learn, say your mother, father, sister the words of love. This is it in order to begin to falling into amazing sea of words, sentences, constructions and so and so.

But that field only eligible for that kind of aims and as we know any language has a more widely complex using for instance in business, professional writing, a poetry (Oh, darling!), and … (a passage will continue)

To begin with process we will be in progress.

Process is really matter to think about as well progress is a key factor of any stuff. And levels are levels that you can describe yourself for the eyes of anothers, business partnears, to your teachers at the university, friends and so fourth. The high level is the really good word. As you may be heard a words like: fluent, flexible, upper – intermediate, extrenely well or whatever it is for presentation by anothers your current level of talking, writing and listening skills via another language.

So and so

4 Apr
English: Sir Winston Churchill.

English: Sir Winston Churchill. (Photo credit: Wikipedia)

I haven’t been meditation three days in a row. It’s very influenced to my mind and to my actions as well. It’s very strange time with a lot joyness and easiness in my particular thoughts and days. Where’s odd gloomy sundays? I’m eating and watching useless TV shows almost all the time. It’s grabbed my time and productivity. I do not know what to do with that because I like it a lot. Not thinking, disturbing and zero paranoia. I’m just checking my e-mails, eating, watching, checking, blah-blah-blah.

For tomorrow I have to make decisions to fix my behavior to back for sufferness. I turn on my telephone and I’m not saying that telephone started to ringing over and over again, but on the other hand sort of annoying begun to press me. How to say it correctly, I have no idea, but social interactivity and modern sources of a la ‘p2p’ actions not for me at all as I guessed. For today I’d been walking, eating and hearing. I took a few photos that wasn’t saved on my phone. it’s ridiculous. Hilarious things are going on.

I’d like to meet a girl, a worm-booking girl with ‘nice’ intelligence and sense of poetry to sharing with ideas and critical materials and even with the authors or our verces which is a uranium of unconsciesness in the information flow. Why not? And there is my next question: Who is regularly reading such a newsfeed from http://nytimes.com/?, http://wsj.com/?, http://financialtimes.com/?, http://huffingtonpost.com/?, and may be the print versions as well? Throught the pdf? Or subscribing? Feel free to call me an asshole but I like provoke debates with confrontation but not for confrontation’s sake. The nice thing to having access for financial tools that is the stimula to write own sort of artiles, yeah, I really want. Good information matters. One of my great frustration to talking in social networks is that the entire ‘industry’ (people, news, pictires and videos) are branded my ‘Lookatme I was there, here and anywhere’. And if you’re in ‘tema’ you’re right, but if you won’t are’re ‘weird’. It’s not some glorification that might be but value system to be ‘natural’ and may be sort of ‘struggles’ not to be in mainstream.

I want to be back to my strange days where I had been writing and reading all the time with empty stomach just with water in the near at the table. I was near to give up my blogging that just ‘stop not to stop’ version of my days. Don’t give up, never and never and never, how says Winston Churchill. (?) Am I wrong with the second name of great honor man? Fix me, if so 🙂 Thank you.

No surpries in the university and in the life. I bought some coffe and happy.